Nah. [you know what, he's pulling out a cigarette and taking a seat, cuz whew, this story. He lights up and takes a long drag]
It was a set up, kid. Only looked like I was the one who killed 'em.
They did more'n just screw me over; my boss had to disband his family after, go into hidin'. Hannya got fucked over, he was supposed ta do the hit with me. N' my sister—. . .
[he shakes his head]
Point is, I more than know that look. Those sort of men don't hesitate, n' they'll betray each other if they gotta.
Ya don't got that look. N' 'm tellin' ya, you don't wanna be that way, either.
[ looks across the field. he could port away. easily. it's not like Nue could stop him.
...
he sits down. ]
To protect the precious world he knows. Even if it screws over everyone else. Even if it makes their lives hell. Sometimes... most of the time, playing nice doesn't get you shit. Not if you weren't supposed to exist in the first place.
My whole world is four people. No one... [ looks away from Nue ] -no one else matters.
There ain't no specific way ta do it, kid. I just want ya to understand that protectin' someone precious ain't the same as screwin' the world ta keep them safe.
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It was a set up, kid. Only looked like I was the one who killed 'em.
They did more'n just screw me over; my boss had to disband his family after, go into hidin'. Hannya got fucked over, he was supposed ta do the hit with me. N' my sister—. . .
[he shakes his head]
Point is, I more than know that look. Those sort of men don't hesitate, n' they'll betray each other if they gotta.
Ya don't got that look. N' 'm tellin' ya, you don't wanna be that way, either.
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I don't. But there's no other way to get what I want.
I'm not you, old man.
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But if ya wanna get what ya want that badly, you'll find another way.
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I can't be that soft. There's no point in playing the bad guy if you just half-ass it.
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N' what's the point of playin' the bad guy, eh?
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... I was attached to him. Literally attached. Zenith, he-
[ he shakes his head, holding back a sob. ]
That's why... that's why I couldn't leave. I tried. I tried, Nue, I just...
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[. . .
He gestures to the ground in front of him]
It just wasn't your turn ta leave. Sit down, kid.
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...
he sits down. ]
To protect the precious world he knows. Even if it screws over everyone else. Even if it makes their lives hell. Sometimes... most of the time, playing nice doesn't get you shit. Not if you weren't supposed to exist in the first place.
My whole world is four people. No one... [ looks away from Nue ] -no one else matters.
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Mmm.
Is that what they would want? For ya to screw over the rest of the world just ta protect 'em.
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[ well, most of them ]
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It's not my crew, old man. It's ours.
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Don't change what I said.
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I understood that a long time ago.
It's why I world hopped. [ ... ] Tried to world hop. I was lookin' for another way. One that didn't screw with other humans.
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Ain't easy. You still lookin'?
I do get it, though. Not wantin' to play nice no more.
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... shoulda known the shepherd's wish was too good to be true. Too easy.
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Guess that sad sack in the mist got me good, huh?
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1/2
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2/3
I could, couldn't I?
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