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[throughbamboo]

You could have.

But say they did listen to you. Would that have been better?

[audacity]

they wouldn't have gotten hurt

and acidia wasn't alive to know the difference anyway

[throughbamboo]

But wouldn't you have died?

[audacity]

and?

[throughbamboo]

[this child i s2g - ]

And you wouldn't have felt bad making them decide to let you die?

[audacity]

you're right it's so much better that everyone else got to decide that i had to live to find my family's bodies

[throughbamboo]

Because it would have been so much better to die, only to come back to see that they died too?

[audacity]

it wouldn't have been worse

[throughbamboo]

Not for you.

You told me that Unholy chose to fought the monster instead, right? That's how they got hurt?

[audacity]

yeah. it was this two-headed fire-breathing thing, so...you know. pretty dangerous

[throughbamboo]

Sounds dangerous.

What do they think about you feeling guilty?

[audacity]

heron apologized for going against what i would've wanted, but...they were all basically like, that was the only thing they were willing to do

[throughbamboo]

Sounds to me like you wouldn't have been able to convince them to let the monster eat you no matter how hard you tried.

1/2

[audacity]

[ maybe like five minutes tick past ]

[audacity]

it's not fair to push me to make safer choices or whatever if no one's gonna do the same for me

cinth and snow apologized & i know they had a hard decision, too. i know it's not really their fault

but it's like everyone else got to decide what they could live with? and i can't live with it, but that doesn't matter, so i have to

[throughbamboo]

. . . imagine Unholy had done what you wanted; do you think they would be fine just letting you die to save themselves? Don't you think they'd be the ones feeling guilty right now if that happened? How would have Acidia felt when they found out?

Have you considered that everyone else might not be able to live with what you would have decided?

[audacity]

you might not believe me when i say this? but...yeah, i have. they'd all hurt a lot. and that'd be terrible.

but this was terrible, too.

[throughbamboo]

I believe you. It would have been terrible no matter what.

I'm not saying you can't be upset. Hell, if you want to feel guilty, I'm not going to to stop you either.

[audacity]

yeah?

[throughbamboo]

All I can really do is make sure to remind you to take care of yourself and give perspective.

[audacity]

no need to worry about that, at least. we're all looking out for each other. the others wouldn't let me push it too hard if i tried

[ and he has. tried. ]

[throughbamboo]

This might come as a surprise, but I'm going to worry anyway.

[you have tried to sacrifice yourself TWICE he is CONCERNED]

[audacity]

that's fair

i'm lucky to have you to worry for me

[throughbamboo]

Don't know about that. Just want you to take care of yourself.

[audacity]

yeah, for sure. speaking of which, i'm gonna

[ starts to type "get a bite" and then backspaces so fast ]

eat something and probably go back to sleep after. i'll see you around, k?