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[throughbamboo]

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[throughbamboo]

That's who I mean. The actual you, my bro.

[doggonemad]

. . .

D'you ever hate Ore sometimes? Because I fuckin' hate bein' Gray sometimes, knowin' it's just some goddamn role someone set up fer me.

[throughbamboo]

[considers that for a moment, frowning]

. . . dunno if I'd say hate, but it pisses me off sometimes. Like I've been forced to live a life I didn't choose.

[doggonemad]

. . . yeah. Now that I know that there's no friggin' way any of Gray's shit could be real, it just. I wanna punch someone in the face, hard. Someone responsible.

[throughbamboo]

[gives his hand a squeeze]

We gotta find out who that is first. Then we can smash their face in.

[doggonemad]

Showmaster, prob'ly.

[throughbamboo]

Prob'ly. But we ain't punchin' her 'til we know for sure.

[doggonemad]

She'd just staple her goddamn jaw back on.

[throughbamboo]

It'd still be a lil' satisfyin'.

[doggonemad]

Lil' bit.

Don't know how ta fix this shit, though.

[throughbamboo]

Not yet, ya mean.

[doggonemad]

Got all this shit that ain't really mine in my head . . . can't say I like it.

[throughbamboo]

Me either. [glances down at their hands]

Feels wrong. N' not just 'cuz it ain't mine.

[doggonemad]

S'like someone forcin' ya to be someone you ain't. Someone you could never be, even if ya wanted to.

[throughbamboo]

Yeah, that's exactly it.

Ain't a bad life, it just ain't mine.

[doggonemad]

An' all the while, it's stealin' yer actual history. Fuck.

[throughbamboo]

Ain't as much to steal from me, but from you -

We'll get it back.

[doggonemad]

I hate it so much. Playin' this goddamn part.

[throughbamboo]

Tch. Y'know what I think I hate the most?

How easy it can be to slip right back into it.

[doggonemad]

. . . yeah. How I just know shit about the families, about people. How I still fuckin' care an' wanna trust 'em.

[throughbamboo]

. . . that might be the only part I don't hate. Carin' about an' trustin' em.

[doggonemad]

But is it me? Or somethin' they put in me? Fuck if I know.

[throughbamboo]

Bit of both, prob'ly.

[doggonemad]

'least I know what whatever happened on the ship's real as fuck.

[throughbamboo]

Y'think what we were doin' right before we got on might not be real?