for @doggonemad

[throughbamboo]

just bros being bros

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[throughbamboo]

[he frowns a bit]

Yer not fucked in the head now, either.

[doggonemad]

It is what it is, bro.

[throughbamboo]

It is what it is, sure.

But it ain't that.

[doggonemad]

[ glances over at him. ]

[throughbamboo]

[he glances back, frown deepening]

Y'got a lot goin' on up there. But ya ain't fucked.

[doggonemad]

Sounds like a tomato, tomahto sorta thing.

[throughbamboo]

Do ya want me to think ya are?

[doggonemad]

It ain't like I wanna be, bro.

[throughbamboo]

Yer not. Ya've been through a lot of shit - ain't gonna lie an' say it didn't mess shit up in there.

[he lifts his hand from Majima's shoulder to lightly tap the side of his head]

But it ain't broke or fucked or none of that, it just works differently now.

[doggonemad]

Works differently by screamin' at me every time I even think about it. Fuckin' sucks.

[throughbamboo]

Hrm . . . wish I knew what to tell ya to do for it, bro.

[doggonemad]

Can't really do much. Drugs ain't gonna do shit 'cept make it worse. Figure the best is, yanno . . . exposure therapy or somethin'. Like how my mind's screamin', but I also know it's you an' you ain't gonna hurt me unless I'm askin' for a punch to the face.

[throughbamboo]

[god, his bro has been fucking through it]

. . . yeah, I'd never hurt ya outside of a fight.

Is it helpin', lettin' you start stuff?

[doggonemad]

Somethin' like that, anyway. Helps ta know when it's comin'. That it's comin'.

[throughbamboo]

[he nods a little bit]

Seemed like it was somethin' like that.

[doggonemad]

Figured it was pretty obvious, at least t'you.

[throughbamboo]

Mmm, picked up on it the last time I got out. Was gonna ask, but -

[then y'know, he went back in]

[doggonemad]

. . . Yeah.

[throughbamboo]

[after a moment of silent thought, he briefly tightens his arm around him]

Makes this all the more meaningful, then.

[doggonemad]

I mean— it's you. I ain't gonna say "no" ta that, yanno? What, am I a fuckin' lunatic?

[ a beat. ]

Besides the usual.

[throughbamboo]

Yer a dumbass, not a lunatic.

Just 'cuz it's me, don't mean ya gotta. Ain't gonna change nothin'.

[doggonemad]

C'mon, don't ruin my image.

[ shrugs, then leans in a little bit. ]

I wanna.

[throughbamboo]

If it's just us 'm ruinin' it every chance I get.

[but his expression softens]

All right. 'M glad ya do.

[doggonemad]

I wanna be, like, big scary fuckin' yakuza out those doors.

An' then in here, I wanna just. I dunno.

[throughbamboo]

. . . just be this. Whatever this is.