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[throughbamboo]

Good. Do you guys need anything?

How are *you* doing?

[audacity]

we're pretty ok on food and stuff. a lot of people have brought things by, it's been rly nice

and i'm pretty much all healed up. those healing pools are super legit, you guys should unlock them if you haven't. might have a couple of scars long-term, but heron says chicks dig scars and he seems like an expert

[throughbamboo]

Good, I'm glad other people are helping take care of you guys.

I'll have to unlock it, but I'm glad you healed up. Do chicks actually dig scars?

But that also isn't what I'm asking about.

[audacity]

[ several minutes pass ]

i mean

about my whole family died

unholy keeps being super nice about it but they also nearly died & that would've been my fault

and we can't get off this boat

so like. not great?

[throughbamboo]

It wouldn't have been your fault.

[audacity]

yeah everyone keeps saying that

i might as well not been there at all

[throughbamboo]

Then tell me something.

Why do you think it's your fault?

[audacity]

extremely literally if they'd let the stupid monster eat me then none of them would've gotten hurt

and i could've tried a lot harder to convince them of that

[throughbamboo]

You could have.

But say they did listen to you. Would that have been better?

[audacity]

they wouldn't have gotten hurt

and acidia wasn't alive to know the difference anyway

[throughbamboo]

But wouldn't you have died?

[audacity]

and?

[throughbamboo]

[this child i s2g - ]

And you wouldn't have felt bad making them decide to let you die?

[audacity]

you're right it's so much better that everyone else got to decide that i had to live to find my family's bodies

[throughbamboo]

Because it would have been so much better to die, only to come back to see that they died too?

[audacity]

it wouldn't have been worse

[throughbamboo]

Not for you.

You told me that Unholy chose to fought the monster instead, right? That's how they got hurt?

[audacity]

yeah. it was this two-headed fire-breathing thing, so...you know. pretty dangerous

[throughbamboo]

Sounds dangerous.

What do they think about you feeling guilty?

[audacity]

heron apologized for going against what i would've wanted, but...they were all basically like, that was the only thing they were willing to do

[throughbamboo]

Sounds to me like you wouldn't have been able to convince them to let the monster eat you no matter how hard you tried.

1/2

[audacity]

[ maybe like five minutes tick past ]

[audacity]

it's not fair to push me to make safer choices or whatever if no one's gonna do the same for me

cinth and snow apologized & i know they had a hard decision, too. i know it's not really their fault

but it's like everyone else got to decide what they could live with? and i can't live with it, but that doesn't matter, so i have to

[throughbamboo]

. . . imagine Unholy had done what you wanted; do you think they would be fine just letting you die to save themselves? Don't you think they'd be the ones feeling guilty right now if that happened? How would have Acidia felt when they found out?

Have you considered that everyone else might not be able to live with what you would have decided?

[audacity]

you might not believe me when i say this? but...yeah, i have. they'd all hurt a lot. and that'd be terrible.

but this was terrible, too.